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sooo there's this person...
that i've had a crush on ever since i saw him.

i never tried to get to know him because he annoys me more than he appeals to me. every time he opens his mouth, i just want to crank up my music's volume and put on my earphones. i hate it when people overthink. one of the main reasons i was a happy child is because i hated to ask questions i know there are no answers to. and sometimes there are questions in life that shouldn't be of much importance! like what came first, egg or chicken? and i know i may come off as simple-minded or stupid but i really don't understand the concept of emo. haha. i like the blissful life.

also, i just hate it when people hate mainstream stuff just for the sake of it. SO WHAT if you're part of the status quo. i'm not saying i like mainstream because there are so many 'cool' things that i hate with a passion. but what good will opposing do to you? it's sooo annoying. like when there's this famous musician that lots of people are into and some haters just automatically HATE. and i'm pretty sure if they hear this they're going to insult me. because they think everything they say is right. yeah right!


and yet...despite all of these...

i still like him because i need a crush. i've come to the conclusion that life is easier with a crush. cos i'm single, ok? since birth. so this is how i look  at things. this is the closest i can get to having an actual boyfriend. anyways i'm not posting this to further prove my bitterness. let's tackle that some other time, hahaha.

i've been stalking his webprint and i feel like stopping already. everything i find just makes it more obvious to me. we are incompatible. BOW.

today was...

WEIRD.

how do you explain being confident and insecure at the same time? or maybe this is just selective confidence/insecurity. aargh so confused.

shape of my heart

i've been bombarded the whole day by my office mates with jokes about my figure and weight. i'm not fat, i know that. and that's probably why they think it's ok to tease me about my weight. maybe if i were 10lbs fatter they wouldn't dare mention anything about my figure to me. i don't feel bad at all because i'm used to being around guys who bully me. and i cope very well by bullying them at the same time. this is what you become when all your siblings are guys. you become tough.

i don't think there's anything wrong with that but i've been wondering if this is one of the reasons that i'm single. everytime i interact with guys i feel like they're going to attack me or something. so i'm slightly cautious and i blurt out all these nasty things so they won't mess with me.

maybe if i tone down this behavior, they'll start thinking i'm a girl too. i'm not saying this in an emotional way or anything. i'm just really curious if i'm a real ball-breaker. hehehe. because if i am, i think i may have to change that.

and the winner is...

PHILLIP PHILLIPS!

he deserved it and i feel happy for him. i really do, despite the fact that jessica is a better singer. i'm filipino but that's not the reason why i'm saying this. you rarely see 16-year olds belt out songs like that. she has a big voice but what's special about her is that she has amazing control. to be honest i was a bit disappointed with the results. it's time for a new american idol. someone who's not another white guy with a guitar. i disagree with some people saying that phil is a true artist and jessica is just a singer. that's just WRONG. i LOVE phillip with all my heart but do we really need another kris allen? another david cook? his talent isn't that exceptional, let's be real. i thought the voters would realize that but i guess they're not ready for  something different. 

anyway, it's over and done so it would be useless to wallow in bitterness. phil is just so precious. he makes my heart melt each time i see him perform. i don't think anyone could hate him. he's just too adorable!

jessica is going to be a big star. i'm almost sure of that. and isn't that the trend these past years? the winners don't really shine as recording artists but the finalists are doing just fine. she's  only 16 so she has many years ahead of her. 

next year na lang ulit, guys. hindi naman tayo nauubusan ng singers sa pilipinas. hahaha

nyx round lipsticks

finally found nyx round lipsticks! i know i can find them on multiply but i don't like ordering lipsticks online. i got these two from a booth somewhere in trinoma at 150 pesos each. that's not too bad right? all the shades i wanted to have were sold out so i just randomly chose two shades. i wanted to experiment with a darker shade so i got gardenia and paris. gardenia is probably more wearable even if it's darker than most of the lip colors i prefer. i'm not sure about paris though. sometimes it's pretty on me, sometimes it looks washed out. maybe it could work with the right eye makeup. i'm pleasantly surprised with the quality! i've read somewhere that they're really creamy and moisturizing but i honestly didn't think it would be this good. i'm gonna have to go back and buy more colors.

what to expect when you're expecting

we were supposed to watch american pie the reunion but we didn't know the cinemas stopped showing it so we ended up watching what to expect when you're expecting. we really didn't know what else to watch but then we saw one of the movie's posters with chace crawford on it. THAT'S HOW WE ENDED UP WATCHING IT. we just couldn't resist chace crawford. hahaha.
 
i wasn't expecting it to be a good movie but i was delightfully surprised. we were laughing the whole time! and if i wasn't laughing, i was either contemplating about pregnancy or ogling over chace. can you even imagine having chace as your children's father?

when we were about halfway through the movie i was so convinced that it's ok for me to have a baby. but when all the characters were giving birth, i FREAKED. it's so traumatizing! i want to have cute babies someday. i'm just not sure how i'll get there without giving birth!

welcome back

hi again!

i'm not sure why i had to make another blog considering the fact that i have a total of about 10! i think it's because of twitter's 140 character limit. sometimes there's just too much to say. it would be nice if i had another venue to pour out my thoughts. hence, the revival of my blogspot.

just recently my cousin was telling me about her new blog that she's trying to set up and it made me miss blogspot so much! i like customizing everything i own. and i used to spend hours of just tweaking my blogspot's layout. so that's also why i'm here now. aside from writing blog entries, i also miss creating layouts/graphics for my blog.

to be honest, i don't blog so i can share stuff with other people. i don't care if people think i'm not a good writer. or that my life is not interesting enough.  i just really like recording everything! if i had enough time i'd write about my daily life everyday! sometimes when i'm feeling like i haven't done anything significant in my life, i skim through my old entries and that's when i realize how i've grown and changed in so many aspects. i'm almost 25 now. and there are a lot of memories in the past that i wish i can still remember vividly. i always, always regret not being able to write about some events in the past that i'd like to reminisce about. i like remembering details. and it kills me sometimes when i can't recall being happy/sad at a certain moment in the past.

i hope this time there will be more experiences to write about. it's time we enjoy and appreciate life more.